warm

i can't keep on doing this.
i have to be okay with my mistakes

no matter what i've done or felt
i just need to keep moving on

i'm afraid of looking back and cringing
reenacting scenes over and over again
wishing i had done this instead,
or thinking perhaps i shouldn't have done that

it's so hard to keep my mind on the present
and shouldn't one eye always be kept on what is ahead?
i've been living with a foot stuck in the past
maybe that's why it's so hard to truly get over things.

i care too much about what people think of me.
too much effort has been put into cultivating some sort of image for myself
i've spent too much time dwelling in my pride,
leaning on my own understanding.

i don't know.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z_rFoD1oE6U
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iY4APDrl66s
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WmucougzKn0